How do I say goodbye

How do I make peace with the move...

How do I say goodbye and feel ok about it 

How do I stop feeling so sad

How do I move when I'm not ready?

The boys  and I drove to my dads for a night and just got home..

And it feels so good to be home

As soon as we got close, we all pointed out all our special landmarks- the school, the corner store where we buy Popsicles in the hot summer time

The hill that my youngest thinks would be a excellent sledding hill 

I love this town 

I know we won't be back

I know once were gone - with time, friendships will be lost, memories will fade, and we will all move on

I know this because I have  moved several times in my life

And that's the way things go

I don't want to loose touch with this place I,love so much

This place that hold so many memories for me

Leaving..

Oh my oh my

How do I begin

We are down to 2 weeks left in our home

Everyday i am living each moment to,it's fullest - taking the biys on as many outings as possible..

Last soccer games, last TBAll games, last Play dates

It's down to the wire now and I feel so sad

I havent always loved it here,

But this past year has been epic. 

I finally have felt as though we are settled in. Not new comers

I can go anywhere and run into someone I know

I know all the best spots for a hike, a run, a playground on a sunny day. I know what restaurants have toys and games for the boys to play

I have learned that on most evenings in the spring and fall, I should wear many layers because we could possible experience - rain, sun, heat and cold and sometimes, even snow..all in a weekend

The boys and I learned  the name of almost every trail at Bolton valley- and skied almost every trail as well

I know the staff at the elementary school by first name and they all know most all the news about our family before I do

I finally got to know the boys pediatrician so well that I can give her a issue I'm wondering about- and she already knows how the boys would respond - who will take it ok, who will be worrying and why

I even know all the shirt cuts in town better than some locals who have lived here all their life 

This is a amazing community with a wonderful school, neighborhoods, playgrounds, ski areas, trails to hike and bike on

I have caring neighbors who have cut my grass and helped rescue my sons stuffed animal from a neighbors gutter in the pouring rain 

When we first moved here, it seemed no one smiled at us, no be came out of their houses..

I was used to the south..where people ooze with friendly ness

But I have seen that people here take a little but longer to warm up to, but once you do, they would do Anythung for you

Oh how my body, mind and soul ache with sadness about leavung

This has been our home for almost 4 years

And not just any old 4 years

But 4 years when my children went from babies to kids

The memories are irreplaceable 

I'm scared that once we go...I may never be back

The things that once were so Important and fun and cool to us, will be forgotten because people don't care about that in the south

I have learned to rely on myself and my little family - alone..

And I'm scared that we will loose that when we leave 

Making our own decisions, finding our own way..

Instead of following in someone else's footsteps 

I'm scared because no one (except my mom) know our life here, what its like, what we did...how we lived 

We found our own way, and we did pretty good.

Hard to start back over in a place with lots of family and they have been doing things their way for long time

I just dint known how to say goodbye

To such a important piece of our lives

Oh my oh my

How do I begin

We are down to 2 weeks left in our home

Everyday i am living each moment to,it's fullest - taking the biys on as many outings as possible..

Last soccer games, last TBAll games, last Play dates

It's down to the wire now and I feel so sad

I havent always loved it here,

But this past year has been epic. 

I finally have felt as though we are settled in. Not new comers

I can go anywhere and run into someone I know

I know all the best spots for a hike, a run, a playground on a sunny day. I know what restaurants have toys and games for the boys to play

I have learned that on most evenings in the spring and fall, I should wear many layers because we could possible experience - rain, sun, heat and cold and sometimes, even snow..all in a weekend

The boys and I learned  the name of almost every trail at Bolton valley- and skied almost every trail as well

I know the staff at the elementary school by first name and they all know most all the news about our family before I do

I finally got to know the boys pediatrician so well that I can give her a issue I'm wondering about- and she already knows how the boys would respond - who will take it ok, who will be worrying and why

I even know all the shirt cuts in town better than some locals who have lived here all their life 

This is a amazing community with a wonderful school, neighborhoods, playgrounds, ski areas, trails to hike and bike on

I have caring neighbors who have cut my grass and helped rescue my sons stuffed animal from a neighbors gutter in the pouring rain 

When we first moved here, it seemed no one smiled at us, no be came out of their houses..

I was used to the south..where people ooze with friendly ness

But I have seen that people here take a little but longer to warm up to, but once you do, they would do Anythung for you

Oh how my body, mind and soul ache with sadness about leavung

This has been our home for almost 4 years

And not just any old 4 years

But 4 years when my children went from babies to kids

The memories are irreplaceable 

I'm scared that once we go...I may never be back

The things that once were so Important and fun and cool to us, will be forgotten because people don't care about that in the south

I have learned to rely on myself and my little family - alone..

And I'm scared that we will loose that when we leave 

Making our own decisions, finding our own way..

Instead of following in someone else's footsteps 

I'm scared because no one (except my mom) know our life here, what its like, what we did...how we lived 

We found our own way, and we did pretty good.

Hard to start back over in a place with lots of family and they have been doing things their way for long time

I just dint known how to say goodbye

To such a important piece of our lives

Oh my oh my

How do I begin

We are down to 2 weeks left in our home

Everyday i am living each moment to,it's fullest - taking the biys on as many outings as possible..

Last soccer games, last TBAll games, last Play dates

It's down to the wire now and I feel so sad

I havent always loved it here,

But this past year has been epic. 

I finally have felt as though we are settled in. Not new comers

I can go anywhere and run into someone I know

I know all the best spots for a hike, a run, a playground on a sunny day. I know what restaurants have toys and games for the boys to play

I have learned that on most evenings in the spring and fall, I should wear many layers because we could possible experience - rain, sun, heat and cold and sometimes, even snow..all in a weekend