Almost 40 and wondering...

Is it all downhill for here???

Just in the past month- one friend had a massive heart attack - another is having both breasts biopsies for cancer and another died

I am just so scared by all of this ......

At an age now where this will be the norm???

My sister came over today and I gave her her belated birthday gift and she said her age and it didn't sink in with me until hours after she left.. But 43 sounds SO old... SO close to 50 it sacred me

So my question and thoughts are...as we age...how do we put the fear away..and just move along? Without thinking about the inevitable?

Each year looming closer to that spot and it terrifies me

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I just want to say thank you ! For writing a great book about kids and skiing
I am a. Mom of two boys - 6 and 9 and we just moved away from Vermont to Sc 
I grew up skiing and Racing in Vermont - and finally introduced that to my boys and for the past 5 years we have had the best times skiing together- sharing the love! 
And so moving away was very hard! But thanks to your book ( which just came in the mail 2 days ago) ....it brings a little of that back to us
We are enjoying cuddling up at night and catching up where we left off and feeling like we are back in our world that we loved so much!
I hope that you are writing more! There are no other books like this !
Thank you

My babies my babies- always keep me guessing

I'm so confusd sometimes as a mother of boys

Soooooo much weight relies on me- how I act- what mood I'm in- who gets more attention 

And mostly after school- the boys have so much pent up energy they fight and wrestle and cry and all right in font  of me...

As if looking for something..wanting something from me.....

If I were not there...or out of town....

It doesn't happen

And I've been sick the past few days - and so I have really limited what I can do with them..

And tonight at bedtime..

Gabe said..

Mom, I dont ever want you to die 😳

So I try to suppress my inner anxiety that he knows something I don't 

And say- I know...I wish no one ever died...

And we talked about age- and how people are living longer these days..

And plus...look at me- I'm a mom and my mom is still around and has a long way to go

That seemed to make them feel better 

But I guess I don't understand, why, if I am so important to them.... Do I bear the brunt of their emotions, antics, bad behavior??? 

And dads job is easy peasy? His job with them compared to mine is apples to oranges

I don't know

I'm tired of being sicko

And it was just so much easier for me to understand them as babies.. Hungry, messy or tired 

The older they get the harder it is...

And the harder it is because the gap between us grows bigger

I feel like I am at a confusing place 

And I miss my babies