Wow what a trip

Home now from Maine and the first things im so amazed with are just that our house feels like a 5 star hotel compared to lake living. It is so nice to be away from these little things that feel like luxuries when you return ...

The bugs, the old toilet, sharing a place with 10 people for almost 3 weeks, no tv, no wifi and limited cell service...

But at the same time, it was amazing. It was beautiful ..

To be in this place I've know my entire life, with my children, and loved ones, 

Waking up to the beautiful, serene image of the lake, surrounded by mountains everywhere, so green. The lake so still and calm. The warmth of pine trees surrounding us and wrapping the cottage up like a blanket. 

I felt safe, I felt open, I felt (I want to write ..free here... But that's not it...) I felt...on edge? Unsure of what to do with myself...

I eventually gave into it and by the last day, I was happy to just spend the day reading by the lake with a cold beer by my side after a long run through the tortuous hills of New England ... Here are some pics of the week...

And then me and the boys also had some nice time away from the cottage as well like here at monhegan island, Maine 

Thank god for family

Spent the afternoon with my sister while all the cousins had a blast being together and getting their energy out at velocity! 

They are all such sweet/ good boys with HUGE hearts ! I love them dearly! 

And it's always great to talk with my sister who is the only person who shares so much of my DNA and understands me and our past - but we don't do it enough..

My little swimmer

Well- I had a wonderful weekend.

Alone with my first born for the first time..

Well, for the first time since his brother has been born ..

He had a swim meet in Augusta - so just he and I ..and my mom and step father- packed up the car and headed to Augusta! Gabe and I in one room and mom and Bucky just down the hall.

And what a great weekend it was.....

The bond and teamwork of the adults,,, getting Gabe to and from his events..finding ok places to eat..and then getting ourselves there - thanks to google maps.,

Was very special! 

The love and support was just awesome !!! 

Every morning they took turns taking Gabe to his warm up sessions - that were VERY early! And just taking away the stress from me - so I could focus on Gabe and just BE with him...be THERE for him. Which so many times, I feel like- I haven't been - to worried about all the other things going on..

Here - I could just focus on Gabe.

There were lots of special moments that really stuck with me..like this moment I caught Gabe and Bucky sharing 

As my mom and I enjoyed a nice walk along the river ! 

In the car coming home- Gabe I think somehow knew I was loosing my carefree- easyness from the weekend and gearing up for getting back home..

And he reached over to me and grabbed my hand ..and just held it..not letting me let go

Getting back home is hard...transition ..etc..

But I wanted to write my memories down so I wouldn't forget just how special this trip felt to me !