My baby Is off to kindegarten

And I'm so so sad! Not sure why I'm having SUCH a hard time/ but I know that my nest is empty/ this is the big step into the world and from here on/ he's only going to be moving further and further away from me. As a mom it's the first time I have felt such a cut/ the connection is slipping away/ thinner and thinner/ until one day/ he will be off to college
Now I'm not trying to be all
Doom and gloom/ of corse there are all sorts of wonderful things that come along with this/ I get more time/ won't be so
Stressed/ can find things I enjoy that fulfill me after so long being a care taker/ but most of all- the feeling I'm feeling now that is hard/ very hard/ is my babies are taking a step away from me / I can sence the change when I gather them from school/ the reconnect is more difficult/ there trying to be "tough" and are noticeably more distant- more social stigmatisms are there- Harrison .. For the first time/ told me that all day a girl was staring at me- and that he was so
Embarrassed ?
First time ive ever even noticed or heard him talk about being aware of feelings such as embarrassment?
One day in school..
It's harder to reach my baby/ the connection we had- the boy who when he's tired would come
To
Me/ and we were so connected/ I feel almost an anger from him/ towards me- a boy I don't know/ one who is starting to be interested in girls/ has own friends/ don't know- with gabe it was different/ he always shared his thoughts and feelings / I feel
Like Harrison internalized so much