Going through the motions

Five months in and I guess we're doing ok- 

Boys getting great grades in school

Gabe made it to the all start soccer team

And I am doing great with tennis- playing almost every day- meeting lots of women - and won my first USTA match

But I still miss Vermont..I can't kick it

Boys still mis it

Friends aren't the same- I see them struggle- trying to make friendships work- school- putting on the happy face 

But we are going through the motions and still feel sad.

It is so hard for me to realize that this is real

We are here and not going back

And Im so sick of writing and talking about the same things..

But- ohhhhh how I miss it this time of year- the crips cold fall evenings

Having a warm fire at the end of a long day spent out doors..the smell of snow in the air - seeing the mountain tops covered in snow 

Opening the front door to look, breath in, taste, touch the first snow flake with your tongue / the raw Brisk shock of the cold night air

Bundling up in your winter clothes for the first time

The excitement of the holidays to come..

The hope of.snow..

Ski season ahead,.

I don't know what to look forward to in the south where it all stays the same