Still stuck

Things are so good...having fun- kids doing well

But I'm still sad...

I'm still feeling 

Like this is a dream or vacation..like we are on vacation..and soon we will go back to,our life?

I see pictures of Vermont..life is changing..leaves turned beautiful colors, temps cooling...winter is coming..

Andi just can't believe we're not there??

It doesn't seam real to me

I really have felt like we're on vacation here- and the reality piece isn't real yet..

That home..that reality- that part of me...

I just still can't believe all that is done

I had grown so accustomed to that life- knew what to expect...

I'm not ready to forget it either...I don't want to loose it

Why is this so hard for me???

I think I have. Moved so many times- that I know - in time, I will loose that piece of myself..my life that really felt good..

To go out on my own and raise my boys- and make our own way- and we had stuff that I really loved..

I loved....this time of year!!!!

I will miss having fires every night

Anyway, I know that - with time, we will all move on- and become embedded into this life

And all those special things we loved, we were so food at..and we're so different from the way things are here..

Will be gone- forgotten

The kids remember now..but there so young - they will forget- little by little

They will forget how much fun we had skiing- and how we knew all the names to every trial..

They will forget what its like to go out into the ice cold and play all afternoon - or stack wood.. Or shovel snow..

Little Harrison who would shovel it and put it back onto the driveway- our first winter there..

Baby- only 3:(( 

The following are pics from our weekend at Sullivan's island- beautiful beach in October - beautiful bonding with my sister